Side Affects: On Being Trans and Feeling Bad (Paperback)

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How the “bad feelings” of trans experience inform trans survival and flourishing

Some days—or weeks, or months, or even years—being trans feels bad. Yet as Hil Malatino points out, there is little space for trans people to think through, let alone speak of, these bad feelings. Negative emotions are suspect because they unsettle narratives of acceptance or reinforce virulently phobic framings of trans as inauthentic and threatening. 

In Side Affects, Malatino opens a new conversation about trans experience that acknowledges the reality of feeling fatigue, envy, burnout, numbness, and rage amid the ongoing onslaught of casual and structural transphobia in order to map the intricate emotional terrain of trans survival. Trans structures of feeling are frequently coded as negative on both sides of transition. Before transition, narratives are framed in terms of childhood trauma and being in the “wrong body.” Posttransition, trans individuals—especially trans people of color—are subject to unrelenting transantagonism. Yet trans individuals are discouraged from displaying or admitting to despondency or despair. 

By moving these unloved feelings to the center of trans experience, Side Affects proposes an affective trans commons that exists outside political debates about inclusion. Acknowledging such powerful and elided feelings as anger and exhaustion, Malatino contends, is critical to motivating justice-oriented advocacy and organizing—and recalibrating new possibilities for survival and well-being.

About the Author

Hil Malatino is assistant professor in the departments of women’s, gender, and sexuality studies and philosophy at Penn State. He is author of Trans Care (Minnesota, 2020) and Queer Embodiment: Monstrosity, Medical Violence, and Intersex Experience.

Praise For…

"Hil Malatino has become an indispensable thinker when it comes to trans scholarship, somehow able to put into words not just ideas but feelings that I had previously found ineffable and unspeakable, a talent that is familiar to me from the very best of literature."—Torrey Peters, author of Detransition, Baby

"Down with the narrative tyranny of gender dysphoria and euphoria! Side Affects dares invoke a trans right to feel bad, not as antidote to normativity but as a portal to the complex feelings of transition that have been buried by medicalization, activist urgency, and the collateral damage of transphobia. Hil Malatino delivers a powerful trans reckoning for feminist, queer, and affect studies."—Jules Gill-Peterson, author of Histories of the Transgender Child


"Overall, it’s an amazingly informative publication that I’m certain will enlighten many people in academia, trans, or otherwise."—neowitcher reads


"Side Affects: On Being Trans and Feeling Bad, rejects the sanitized narratives of the moral and intellectual purity of transness meant to please the cis gaze. Instead, it delves into a conversation around the trans experience that acknowledges the reality of feeling, fatigue, envy, burnout, numbness, and rage amid the ongoing onslaught of casual and structural transphobia as a way to map the emotional terrain of trans survival."—Shondaland


"The book provides an insider's view of the bleaker and more frustrating aspects of transition, too often downplayed since transgender people were forcibly enlisted as combatants in the so-called culture wars."—Boston Review


"Malatino’s argument is firmly grounded in current trans, queer, and feminist theory, while it invokes the methods of poststructural critique and phenomenological interrogation."—CHOICE


"Reading Hil Malatino’s Side Affects: On Being Trans and Feeling Bad offered me permission to see my life and the terror of this current political moment with more honesty."—X-Tra


Product Details
ISBN: 9781517912093
ISBN-10: 1517912091
Publisher: Univ Of Minnesota Press
Publication Date: April 19th, 2022
Pages: 224
Language: English